amour amour

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

- 9:32 pm

i know its been a while since i've caught this particular bus, but im here now, catching the upswing on the down low. things havent been this quiet since the last time Studious Maximus the Amazing Wonderdog Who Was Librarian of the Year in Secondary Two decided to throw a party; but here we are now, with a giant sometimes, maybe, staring us in the face. too much uncertainty it seems; hell, well welcome back. constancy'll kill you, yknow.

there is a sort of darkness in this world; a deeper shade of black, that sneaks up on you slowly, as you stare wordlessly up at the night sky wondering where all the stars have gone (don't look straight at them maybe, someone once said). it pads along quietly, sneaking up on you, stretching out inquisitive tendrils before wrapping itself so completely about you that you are blind. it is a strange kind of darkness; but not one unfamiliar. you can bristle and snarl and tear it away but eventually it leaks into you to be welcomed like an old friend, clasped firmly to bosom. in this new darkness, there is silence; fainter lights burn brighter.

so have come and gone the last days; a burning away of what was; a terrible fire to stave away the dark with. even then, as the glowing embers of dying flame begin to cool, it rushes in greedily to fill in the new void; as if keen to retake former territory.

there are many things left unknown, things of this world that i do not know; but that i can accept. for there are three worlds waiting to be found and the irony is that the one that is most apparently real is the one most artificial. if you close your eyes hard enough, and open your heart wide enough, you may find the room, the room that is not the room and the world behind your eyes. and it is the memory of the reality of that second place that will forever sustain me.

this is a strange kind of darkness; a false amelioration, but it is no stranger. i will deal.

fin

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