Nature's first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold Her early leaf's a flower; But only so an hour Then leaf subsides to leaf So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day Nothing gold can stay -robert frost-
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
- 7:36 pm
"And time remembered is grief forgotten" -Algernon Charles Swinburne, Atalanta in Calydon
every season has its song and every reason has its wrong. the song now is slower than it used to be, but picking up fast. the night doesnt close in as fast as before, but it was, of course, hardly there at sunset way. we'd be milling around the field playing football at 745 and it was still bright, night fell around 8, and even then it was still bright. are your nights as dark and silent? the birds dont chirp as loudly here, before retirement. everything is oddly quiet in the dead of the night; as though time itself stopped. nothing moves, apart from the occasional leaf, tossed about by a passing breeze.
sometimes you dont know what youre doing or where your supposed to be going. you look at the way things are headed and you wonder; is this it? is that all there really is? because you know it isnt. you know there is much more, so much more. when you look up at the night sky, its almost inviting you to step up and walk through the air to grab at the stars. of course, if you really tried that youd be burnt down to your atoms and then, so much for the tendancy to complexity. but its a nice way of putting things.
the tendancy to complexity is an expression of the direction in which the world is going. everything in the universe is becoming steadily more complex, as the first atoms and molecules combined to form stars, which exploded to form our planets and the universe and matter, and eventually living organisms. and eventually these combinations of atoms and molecules grew increasingly complex and led to sentient beings. the universe is more complex than it was 15 billion years ago because everything is heading towards an ultimate complexity. anything that accelerates or promotes this process of complexity is good. anything that thwarts it, slows it down or stops it is evil. complexity. that is what life is about.
sometimes you find a kindred spirit to walk this walk with you. sometimes you dont. sometimes you find one and realise that it wasnt what it was all about after all. then you realise, all you can depend on, if youre up to it, is yourself; because at the end of the day, you're the only one keeping you alive.
haresh postulated that in any transaction, the customer always holds more power than the salesman. he was right.
fin
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
- 12:32 am
the surreality of being entraps us within the uncertainty of its boundaries. its funny the way the pendulum swings; sometimes so real and at other times you're just left with a touch of vapour in your hands where once felt something solid. the days grow older and older, depleted of meaning; to hold the past in fond regard and remember all that was and how it was. when now, the only way left to meaning is the future, to build and make your own. for everything that seems so real now starts to lose meaning, retaining only a sense of superficiality and slight bewilderment at the way you let things go. after all, you always did understand, so don't let yourself fall again. nothing is ever as important as they want you to believe. live fast, die young yknow? its all good.
fin
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