Nature's first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold Her early leaf's a flower; But only so an hour Then leaf subsides to leaf So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day Nothing gold can stay -robert frost-
Monday, May 11, 2009
- 12:34 am
i guess this is how it is.
im not so worried about the way the world works any more because we make our own worlds. Its about being happy and being in touch with yourself and who you are; because thats what makes you, and you make the people around you.
my name is akesh abhilash. i was born about 21 years ago in the middle of the night (11pm) on the 10th of june in 1988 and i've lived every day of it trying to understand who i was and my place in the world. i think/hope i know this now; and this is how it is.
i do lots of stuff. i like to read a lot and salman rushdie is my favourite author. im also a die hard Liverpool man and can play anywhere on the field but love the wings because nothing beats the feeling of bursting down the wing and cutting into goal or a well delivered cross. i write a lot of poetry and have been an actor for most of what i can remember; the stage is where im most comfortable because there you throw away all your facades and walls and you are finally you. on the stage (and on the phone. but only with one).
ive lived in too many places. i was born in singapore and lived in spanish village; but then we moved to the UK, and then paris before coming back to sunset way where i lived for 13 beautiful years and one terrible one, clementi park condo during the renovation before heading to a condo in bishan opposite skool for my j2 year and then to the tessarina in bukit timah where i live now. i attended raffles institution before graduating and heading to raffles junior college. now im in singapore management university doing law and i guess this is what im gonna do. i have the best friends (james, maverick, dipak) and more girlfriends than i can remember though i never loved any of them but then again never said anything to show as much. its so difficult because the rest of the world is so different; with different ideas and thoughts and ideals; nobody else sees things the same way; except one, who is gone, and sometimes i feel so alone.
i dont know what my plan in life is right now. its nice to have plans and all but sometimes you realise theyre just hopes and dreams and you gotta make your own realities. right now, after decisions, its to become an international lawyer and fly all over the world; i want to see everywhere and know everything. there was a time when i thought about love and partnership but its pretty much bullshit; i think ill do fine on my own. i guess its my bad; sometimes you meet the right person but its just the wrong time; but these things happen just once or never at all and that time has passed. how often is it that you match so perfectly with another? but like i said; i guess ill do fine on my own.
in the future i guess ill want a big house with a beautiful garden; 2 dogs (a german shepherd and a collie), a cat and a big aquarium. one day ill buy a lamborghini diablo because thats my dream car. and ill work hard and make sure it happens. ill travel the world fighting my cases and putting down serbian/african warlords in international courts, meet clients and change things. i want to see the world and help the poor. nobody deserves hunger. i want 2 kids (a boy and a girl) but i dont want any other partner. so no kids then. i will make these things happen. this is what i dedicate my life to. i dont think i want anybody else in my anyways.
i'm only gonna live once. so i'm gonna burn bright; and make sure nobody forgets me. especially you.
live fast, die young. we all disappear eventually, anyways.
fin
nothing gold can stay
mr lovva lovva
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