Sunday, December 31, 2006
- 1:39 am
JAMIE CARRAGHER IS THE BESTEST DEFENDER IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!
swanked off duffys blog!
have you ever?
Played Spin the Bottle?: some friends of mine invited me to but i screamed and ran away.
Toilet Papered someone's house: halloween some years back. they gave us bleeding apples. one we threw eggs at these two boys who came running back with an egg in each hand to throw back at us. the six of us took out our cartons. :)
Played Poker with money: RI4H 2004 was a bit of a casino royale.
Gone swimming in a white T-shirt: you tend not to wear shirts when you swim, unless youre a fat, insecure guy with moobs (or if you're 42 with moobs and an ugly mug to boot). nope.
been tickled so hard you couldn't talk: when i was small but i dont tickle easy anymore.
liked someone but never told them: hahaha umm yes once when i was small.
went camping: when i was in (ugh!) scouts. the horror, the horrow. but that was back between p3 and sec 1 when i was small and stupid so i am redeemed (i hope. please dont consign me to hell.).
had a crush on your brother's friend: brothers over girls.
walk in the rain without an umbrella: all the time. i think i need to buy an umbrella and throw away the old "i won't drown!" routine.
told a joke that nobody thought was funny: who knows? *mysterious looks all round*
been in a talent show: haha no.
started laughing at someone's bedtime: ramana. he sleeps at 8 every night.
worn somthing your mom didn't appove of: i dont know.
been to a nude beach: haha no; body exhibitionism=yuck.
drank jack daniels: maxine gave me a whole bottle for my birthday! most of it however, was finished by bhavan and hazmi. so whats new?
cursed in a church: father forgive me. stupid fucker.
been called a slut for kissing someone: by matin i think, once upon a time.
burnt yourslef with a curling iron/straightner: painfully, yes.
wanted to be a police officer: hello mr policeman, your pay sucks. no.
dumped someone: badabing badaboom. barney the sinodaur!
been hit on by someone too old: i dont know unless you count that 50 year old ah mah working at bliss bridal creations while i was emceeing for them who labelled me as a 'hamsen boy ah'.
wanted to be a model: yes, a role model for all little kids and grown ups. im captain planet and wolverine rolled into one.
bought lottery tickets: no theyre stupid.
made out in a car: smeeeeagol.
cried during a movie: yes, SOB.
wanted something you couldn't have: more, more, more!
had sex on the beach: naw
had the drink sex on the beach: yupp, once in indochine. it was bitter.
seen someone shoplift: sophiandy in primary school. ATALAKUNCI SIA!
hung up on someone: yes.
yelled at your pet: once when whissie bit me. and when fifi was naughty and tried humping pepper when he was small.
bought a thong when the cashier was a guy: IM NOT YOUR INSECURE 42 YEAR OLD BOY, so i dont buy thongs.
tried to strip when drunk: i dont get drunk.
gotten seasick: very easily.
had a stalker: yes! tigger and pepper and socks and ginger all loved stalking birds!
played a prank on somone that had them really scared: so many times
been embarassed by one of your family: sometimes
felt bad about eating meat: NEVER. im your top dog carnivore with an attitude. FLESH.
protested: if you mean at the amount of homework we used to get, then yes.
been to an island: lets climb up to the trees with the monchichis
been in love: yupp de doo
ate jus because you were bored: espesh when its time to study
looked at something everybody thought was ugly and said "aww": no. lets not look at ugly things. chances are theyre 42 and cry themselves to sleep.
Screamed in a library: no! shhhhh
Made out with a stranger: one night at cheekys last year.
Been Dumped: happily, no.
Wished a part of you was different: please heal legs and feet! ankles and knees = injuries!
asked a guy to dance: matin!
been asked out by a really hot girl: i long for the good old days, when the party was all about partyin
laughed so hard you cried: yes.
went up to a complete stranger and started talking: yes.
been sunburned: yes.
kicked a guy in the nuts for being a pervert: gosh how many times i have wanted to kick mr 'i look up skirts' magic 42.
threw up in school: yes
recieved an anonymous love letter: primary school
had to wear something you hated: no
been to a luau: hawaii is awesome but ive never been there
saw your ex and wanted to kick her ass: nope
cursed in front of your parents: once when brazil missed a clear chance in the world cup finals and hazmi and my dad were watching with me i shouted 'fuck!' completely accidentally. haz and i froze but thank god the father was too busy cursing too.
been in a commercial on tv: not yet
watched a movie that made you miss your ex: ella enchanted. sob!
been out of the country: many times
been honked at by some guy when you were walking down the sidewalk: no and im not surprised
won at pool: a few times. im not too good though.
went to a party where you were the ony sober one: all the time. whats with me and drinks? they taste bad.
went on a diet: once upon a time...
been lost out to sea: nope
tanned topless: hahahaha no i dont think i need a tan.
been attacked by seagulls: no, but by little kids. all the time. help me.
been searched in an airport: heathrow is a crap airport.
been on a plane: many times. they bore when long haul.
been pants-ed: i wear pants all the time in school?
thown a shoe at someone: yes. once when gavin walked in during a rehearsal i shouted "thar she blows! the whoite whale!" and he threw his slipper at me and missed so i threw it back and didnt miss.
broke someone's heart: mean mistreater
sung in the shower: all the time
bought something way too expensive: hahaha yes shoes and shirts. $320 predator converts i hardly wear and a pretty decent $350 guess shirt. oh and a 400 pound topman set i wore for prom which i probably am not gonna wear again anytime soon. :(
done something really stupid that you still laugh about: hahaha yeah my class was real fun.
been walked in on when you were dressing: yeah
ran out of a movie theatre because you were too scared of the movie: yeah, flushed away.
been kicked out of the mall: nope
ben mean to someone then instantly wanted to take it back: yeah
been given a detention on the worst day that you could get one: never had detention. i was always the generous one, giving away my demerit points to the needy varuns and vishals of the world.
done something stupid when you were drunk: i think so.
fell off your roof: hahaha wouldnt i be dead if that were the case
pretended you were scared so you could cuddle up with someone: nah
had a deer jump in front of your car: haha no unless the cars like a perodua kancil in which case sometimes they do try to overtake my fathers car just to show that theyre faster than a BM. of course we gun the engine and schumacher our way past.
threatened someone with a water gun: "this is a water gun. this, however, is a real gun." good old brando.
Can you....
Unwrap a starburst with your tounge: dont know what that is
sing: you tell me
open your eyes underwater: always
eat whatever you want and not have to worry: yeah
ice skate: yupp
sing in front of a crowd: oh im not used to performing in front of crowds. gawsh.
whistle: yesyesyes
be a bitch at times: like oh my god. duh!
do thirty pull ups: no, im still stuck at 6/7.
walk in really high heels: yeah man
eat super spicy foods: no real liking. hazmis the tabasco man, ask him.
skateboard: too scary
sleep with the lights on: always in class.
mulititask: on occasion, when i feel like it.
touch your nose with your tounge: no, my tongue isnt that long.
fall asleep easily in the car: hardly ever
do the cotton eye joe: but i can do the locomotion! just ask grand funk railroad.
play ddr and not fall: thats a stupid game for mentally challenged idiots with not much of a life and 42 year olds.
surf: scared of sharks and whales and barracudas.
fit in your locker: no, it was small.
do a split: NO
taste the difference between pepsi and coke: like yeah its pretty much obvious when you drink those just to live.
fin
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
- 11:26 pm
i know james is the naughtiest boy in the whole wide world when we have msn convos like this.
james says:
we got into a fight which i won
nihilist // the railroad. says:
how did this fight start
nihilist // the railroad. says:
abd what happened
james says:
then when i left the house 4 a bit my phone was smashed into pieces
james says:
we sis and i were arguing initially then he started to attack me
james says:
ut wasn't so bad at 1st
nihilist // the railroad. says:
what were you arguing about anyways? cricket?
james says:
but when i found out what he did too my phone then we got into a big fight
nihilist // the railroad. says:
james james...naughty boy ah
james says:
no i was shitting in my sis's toilet caus mine was faulty
james says:
and half way through my sis demanded that i get out
james says:
i refused..she started sreaming.so my bro came and demanded that i get out immediately.. i said give me a minute
james says:
next thing i knew the door was slammed down
james says:
but good thing i just finished by then..haha
JAMES IS A NAUGHTY MISCHIEVIOUS BOY.
fin
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
- 1:14 pm
you know, ive always felt that sometimes when you feel so much for someone, but feel nothing in reciprocation, its time to move on. maybe you could work on it and see what happened, but if nothing did, move on. it could be long or short, or through the entire stretch of your j2 life that youd absolutely die of shock, joy or other heart related ailments at the thought of those words from that person; which never come. you move on.
but you realise a part of you still does belong to that person; when you have given so freely- and is so hard to take back. i think my classmates (the east side) gave me pretty good advice- and i dont think i strayed far. still, i love you- silly little me!- still i love you.
fin
Sunday, December 24, 2006
- 5:00 pm
hail to your dark skin
hiding the fact your dead again
rock and roll suicide
come home quick
fin
Thursday, December 21, 2006
- 11:20 pm
just as i hit fine form and score 4 goals on saturday and sunday i discover that ive torn my anterior tensile flexor ligaments and cant play for six weeks. it also means i only have to go into NS in april so yupp. see what tv stuff i can do and maybe intern at a law firm. also, welcome back to singapore dheesha, who has been in new zealand for the past two weeks making me very very jealous. i love new zealand, have a friend there, alec, who describes it as some sort of mystical haven. man. helped nadia out today at wendys who organises lunches for tai tais and generally rich ah lians. good for them, though sunday still beckons tantalisingly. its still so far away! two days. gosh.
so i guess life gets good again; except for the football bit. like ill listen. ha.
fin
- 12:49 am
as usual, sleep eludes me, although this time for the lack of familiarity that your prescence has bred, and you are sorely missed although this ring does go some way to remedying the situation, together with the knowledge that tomorrow there'll be time again. through toil and turmoil to somehow come out on top reveals some truth behind purpose and creation; and i think we found ours. cherish these days, letters and memories, for there are more to come. so many more.
sleep tight nady.
fin
Friday, December 15, 2006
- 1:20 am
why.
youd think that certain people valued certain things but after a while youd realise that they dint really give much of a fuck after all. so many lies; for shame, for shame, for mockery and then shame.
fuck you, i hate. i hate. fuck you. i hate. i abhor i detest i hate i cannot stand fuck you.
and then thanks, for taking trust, and breaking it. the screen swimsss and sonoo iwdewkll be cola[psled;
thr ednfd isd neartfg
Saturday, December 09, 2006
- 2:26 am
im so glad to have this sweet post exam lull because its meant that ive been given so much more time to meet up and get close to friends i havent met in ages- like sunset james, whose place im going to tomorrow at one in preparation for soccer at sunset by 530. good stuff gettin back together with the sunset boys. haha i remember how before my o's james and i used to sit around eating chocolate and talking about life. he still gives the best advice; thats why he's my brother.
in other news its sad that stupid james dint win prom king, especially since i and another bunch of idiots carried him onto stage and i gave him a shitload of very sagely advice. our good man bhavan after orchestrating the plan to carry him up never went up so there we are. smart chap (who incidentally becomes much smarter after a few drinks and proclamations of 'i am not drunk okayyy'). like suhas at harshils party. bhavan and i were like 'down it man, be a man. we'll drink with you' and then he downs it whilst we chuckle away and just raise our cups making a lot of noise. then narpal quietly pours a bit more for him with the vehement proclamation 'eh you never finish sia! bit more' and he tips over the edge claiming the moon is up in the sky despite our protestations. we's good people.
life now is good. bhavan asked me to go for some giggs tomorrow but i cant cos ill be down at sunset so sorry old man.
this man here is my brother
this fellow is not only a brother, but a permanent fixture at casa del kesh
this man is just confused. (but also a brother.)
this man is the token white guy who also magically became a brother thanks to the joys of a level mugging.
together, we are terrible people. and this is why rj life has been so special and cool and good and important and other gooddddd things because of these people. brothers till the end man. even though this might have been repeated several times in fits of drunken revelry; it still hold true through sobriety. save it for the good times man. for the good times.
fin
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
- 10:49 pm
AJIT IS MY DADDY (AND EVERYBODY ELSES) ;)
fin
- 10:17 pm
as per request of dear, dear ajit/jijinho/serginho/i cant think of any more nicknames,
no, really ;)
fin
- 8:26 pm
prom was a blast. ill tell this story in pictures.
the three of us and our takes on life
its always exciting when you meet your favourite celebs at prom and meeting the snoop was no exception. with so much drama in RJC its kinda hard bein snoop b-h-a-v.
sarahs wonderful hair
all this followed by clubbing at momos and then to room 608 with the guys. what a night.
fin
- 3:59 pm
the provision of any semblance of solace to salve the burning feeling of emptiness occurent at a divergence of spirit is something spectacular. how do you ease the grief and soothe the pain when you help hurt yourself?
sometimes, you just dont know what to say when things happen. i guess its my fault. it always is. never really liked anybody else taking the blame when they got stuff to handle. its always beautiful to know- and to remember; but sorrow is not. sorrow is dark and ugly and painful yet somehow they are delivered in equal doses nowadays with increasing amounts of the latter.
walking away never seemed so strange or difficult; because when you walk on principle- for pride; its much more painful for knowing that emotion still reigns. frustration sweeps words up in waves that swell and crest and explode with burning venomousity to create hurt. and thats never good. i was always good at stuff but never with dealing with some things for the whirlpool that remains for a lack of a means of adequate expression. raw, wild, passionate and energetic expression, for howling, jumping and screaming ecstacy, or the darkest depths of despair; and inability to emote with sufficient ardour. talk about containment.
yet there will always remain a bit unbound and open to only a few; yet somehow it seems stupid for they were ever the few to cause much woe; in the greatest quantities. how can i leave when i give freely what is mine; and i still hold what is not mine (i hope.). you may have my candour; for were we to be born again; i wouldnt hope for much difference; for all suffering was initially borne of relative joy and beauty, and for having those in my life- even fleetingly- i am grateful and glad.
its taken so long; so long for some wounds to heal that you can only hope that new ones arent rent. the soup spoon, anyone? because sometimes at night its calming and strangely reassuring to hear the sound of measured breathing and sweet reassurances; even when theyre yours, although the lack of a reply on occasion does lead to consternation. a phobia? there needs be stability. one and forever, till an end of days. remember big plans. remember memories. and remember love.
i dont know what im doing.
fin
- 3:42 pm
it hurts the most when people whom you hold the closest seem to be doing their best to hurt you.
fin
Monday, December 04, 2006
- 12:26 am
i dont know.
its hard, okay?
its hard.
this ones for bhavan, james, narpal and hazmi,
brothers for life.
fin
Sunday, December 03, 2006
- 3:11 am
so the exams are over and im back from overseas and what better way to celebrate than by coming home at 7 and meeting friends. i went to james' (sunset) house thinking of crashing but instead found him john and his mother outside cleaning the front yard; so i changed out and engaged in manual labour for the next three hours, and so ah lups cleaning service consisting of boxer tyson, the hawaiian glutton and one more scrubbed and pulled and carried. then i headed down to chinatown with james to meet nadia and her friends and we went back to the rafflesia for the party by poolside with the guys- then at about ten thirty i go down to ministry of sound (sounds for the weird guy) to link up with zul haz and james(chinese) for the rest of the night till like 230 with sarah(hazmis) shibani mavis russell abel another 1e guy and trevor (liyana or anitas bf they say. everyone was trying to squeeze his apparently bouncy arse [with the exception of yours truly. i kicked it :)]) and then grab a cab home for sleep till like 5pm the next day. i crawled out of bed sometime around 6am before that to find my dad sprawled out on the sofa watching tennis. suddenly remembered dipak just got back and arranged to meet up before spending the evening at east coast listening to the waves. man. dont know what time im gonna wake up tomorrow just that i gotta be at farrer park mrt by 7 to meet bhavan and co for harshil/snadys party. sounds like fun. gonna hit the gym routine again from tomorrow. life is good again, i think.
fin
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