Wednesday, April 19, 2006
- 10:19 pm
nothing gold can stay
in other news, happy birthday nadia. good on you for turning 17 my dear little friend.
stuff tomorrow morning, rehearsals on friday, sonias birthday on saturday, dance thing on sunday and a fuck load of work to do. kichiro screening next friday, and more rehearsals. shows on- soon.
relaxed with hazmi and zul after skool, and then waited with hazmi for the 410.
met deric krinesh tara gareth nithi malin sherman and a load of other people today round seven at forum. and then fiona was there which was a complete surprise. she was just as surprised to see me and got me to sign up for the modelling thing again since i havent really been attending. at all.
i told ms ngin everything. i dont know how i did it, or why, but i guess i was tired of making up excuses for all the blue slips i needed to take and why. and im glad, because i know i can trust her. shes a brilliant form teacher.
gonna be dropping maths soon- good riddance.
im falling in love with you. i dont want to. i dont dig the whole thing. i dont ever want to go through what i did after i broke up with thenu again. i still remember her. she loved lilies. white lilies, and i miss talking to her sometimes. never again. but i cant help it; and i try, i really do- but whenever i see you i dont know what to say or do. you confuse me like nobody else and break me up doing nothing. i love you; and i still cannot tell you. i see you in skool and pretend not to because i dont know what to do; and then when you're gone; you're gone. and i know i need to show you me, show you something real, but im counting on time i dont have. life is a confusing mess right now but amidst the jumble i know two things for sure; that i will always have the sky, and that i love you.
sarah nadya and anita really made me think.
do you really know me
thank you hazmi and azizul,
for being there.
fin
hit the stars
