Monday, December 12, 2005
- 10:19 pm
die liebe ist ein wildes tier
Sie beißt und kratzt und tritt nach mir
im not happy. at all. in fact im furious.
the world is full of stupid shallow minded people, a lot of whom have severe attitude problems. one of whom of course happens to be my fourth ex.
another thing are rumours. everything i do leads to some stupid rumour. i made friends with some girl a few days ago; this instantly means we will be getting married tomorrow according to a number of people. and my 4th had the bloody audacity to call her up and talk to her, and tell her what a horrid person i was. stay the fuck outta my life girl; i dumped you because towards the end, i couldnt stand you. you had a bloody attitude problem and i hate you, i abso-fucking-lutely hate you. sure you mighta worked me up a bit right now- but for the fact that you bloody called my friend and spoke my name - just remember - you are and always will be nothing to me evermore.
sweet talker? oh but girl you dont know. i actually meant everything i ever said but you with all your bloody attitude cleaned that all right out of me. and you know what? i dont give a fuck for what you think. i absolutely adored my first two; right to the end. it took me a whole fucking year to get over the two of them. and i know i dint do it right with the two of em because i just dint know how- they were my first- but now you watch. i have absolutely never loved anybody like my first two- nobody ever made me feel like i did when i was with them; never with you or anybody else. now dont you dare take this away from me.
and then you come out and say sital just wants to play around till she leaves. fact one girl - theres nothing fucking going on between us. i dont know where the world is getting all this from but obviously you and a number of people have huge problems with guys and girls being friends but hey - nothing is bloody going on. just because you dont like her doesnt mean shite to me. and even if anything did happen it wouldnt be your fucking problem. as for playing around? jesus christ girl i have something you dont have- trust. ive never said anything i dint mean because girl- i say it like it is. so bring on whatever you have. at the end of the day it doesnt matter because guess what? you dont matter.
you see, thing is someday ill be some lawyer or actor on the fast lane with a fast car with some girl i loved while you priyanka, you can go fuck samy, velu and ah san all the same time. see you dont seem to understand some things, and since everything is coming out, what the hell. here goes.
it doesnt matter really since she probably wont be reading this but what the heck. youd probably not a known this kinda a thing priyanka but mansheel? i loved her so much when we were together. i did. back then she was everything to me; and you know what sucks? i finally got over her two weeks ago. you see priyanka, you were never it. i never loved nobody like i did my first, or mansheel and i thought i would never again; but things are changing babe. so fuck outta my face with all your talk of insincerity and sweet talk; because girl, ive meant every word ive said, and i do mean it when i say get fucking lost. dont ever fucking call sital again you conniving thing because it wont change anything between us; your little words will not break my friendship with her.
Läßt sich fallen weich wie Schnee
Erst wird es heiß dann kalt am Ende tut es weh
as for my next? im gonna make it work. and you wont be able to do jack shit about it.
fin
hit the stars
