amour amour

Sunday, October 30, 2005

- 6:14 am

ruminations on a cloudy night

what passes through your mind at night?
those thoughts flitting by,
ruminations sometimes staying
a while
to disappear
just like that;
covered up,
hidden.

what holds you to yourself in this,
the deepest part of the night?
out from your balcony,
up to the sky where
the stars hide themselves in
their velvet cloaks and
snuggle down warmly
to everything that is;
to your world beyond.

thinking and seeing;
what is that never will be
and sometimes the memory of
what was lost
still brings a smile
and some warmth
semblance of comfort
before the cold presses in
all over again

how do you ascertain
anything to diffentiate
between memories
and everything that is
it was all lost beyond control
and before
within grasp
to slip out of sight
like the moon
this cloudy night?

what do you truly have
but image; and a being
to go back the next day
like nothing happened
whilst emotions fight
and run wild
through the night
the endless expanse
clouded by the truth
knowing that the next day
will come as it will

then to slip silently
back
to the facade that is
to keep everything
inside
to burn

no finality
to this never ending cycle
the end is close at hand
though many years might separate us
from a single blink

beyond any willing expression
return
come back
to how it was
before the fall
come as i call
come as i call

a memory of it all

kill me.

i can emote no further; i refuse myself allowance of any such liberty and so i give you break; live forever, love fornever for the last time; and it ends.

fin

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rackin' em up since before you were born
(january 2004)