Nature's first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold Her early leaf's a flower; But only so an hour Then leaf subsides to leaf So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day Nothing gold can stay -robert frost-
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
- 8:31 pm
why am i so confused as to what needs to happen and how it does? its very frustrating, being very undecided; thinking you want something- immaterial or very much real; and then later realising that naw, its only making things worse.
plunge down into the deeper will of the dark mind torment brewing like thunderclouds on the rim of self sufferance in the created self righteous suicide and suddenly; meeting the renewal realisation of what never was banishment, with emancipation, and a new song golden, like the sun
today went by quite quickly; with the only things worth mention being my 1.6km in 6:32 and the position papers. im shocked, how will i ever make it within 9 minutes if im doing four rounds in 6:32? and then i think and realise, fuck that, its not like the 2.4 matters anyway does it now. i dont know why i do so many things for no reason at all, its so stupid the way i realise things later on. and then we had double history which was boring as usual although it is some consolation noting how dayna is quite decent.
i dont know what im thinking, how or why im thinking. and then i realise i know everything about why i do what; but im not projecting good enough. im so restless seeing as to how i havent acted for a long time, but we'll see if the J1 production pulls through. and on a random note, 1A01D rocks. yes thats my class. did i mention we're an arts class?
i miss the wind and westering days; and the sun setting on the far left-
so ive retrieved them from the past to live the present
come as i call, come as i call
nothing gold can stay
mr lovva lovva
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