Nature's first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold Her early leaf's a flower; But only so an hour Then leaf subsides to leaf So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day Nothing gold can stay -robert frost-
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
- 1:46 pm
today we were hammered 7-4. im completely furious, we went 6-1 down at one point; the defense was in pieces. bloody hell. too many people going up, too few wanting to commit to the defense.
real madrid 0 - 0 athletic bilbao
no. that doesnt help much either. in any case the days are pulling away, longer and longer. i have a heavy weekend- on friday and saturday is daisy pulls it off (no, its not a porn flick) and on sunday i got this kalashatvam emceeing thing to do. im actually quite pleased for being involved- theyre all real nice although its quite perturbing seeing how im the only J1 involved.
im confused, and irritated at the same time. im stuck in a rut i cant be removed from - so close to perfection, and then not. champions league finals on thursday. yes i will be watching it. but yeah. fuck. so many things passed around and about its hard to believe what to believe and understand why.
so why bother? why subscribe to the nonsense forced down your throat like a duck being force fed for pate? i like living in my outside world- where everything is much more clear; live for the day, live for life, and live for me and everything else. so much more, and so much less, without the loss. keep me in this state; and then release me- do i deserve this? fuck that. i dont care. when do i ever? furious; for the day that turned everything upside down, and sent it all wrong; and a bottle of venom to make it all good again.
i dont know what to do. emotionally; im dying. and its showing during my rehearsal. i really cant be bothered and my voice is going. its all going wrong.
i believe i believe
thank you god for my friends thank you for ramya thank you for thenuga thank you for hulin thank you for james singh thank you for krinesh thank you for james muruthi thank you for bhavan
thank you for everything; and nothing; for what you gave you took just as readily.
fallen from grace; but returning as i fell; i know everything; i live a soul - for expression break; nobody lives forever yet i love fornever
passing by glory tender life story not black not white but gray in sight you rue the day you hear them say life was a red brick wall so come as i call come as i call
fin
nothing gold can stay
mr lovva lovva
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