Wednesday, March 02, 2005
- 12:29 am
darkness outside yellow pinpoints of light differentiating existential matter from impure, dirty black. dark cloudless night reaching out around from a point of centrality to engulf the rest of space in its cold dark grip; suffocating- and then carressing as cold darkness is transformed to velvet softness with the prescence of a being; such a difference a single one can make to the indefinable inexorable grandiose wonder nature has provided to us in the form of night. and far up ahead, the lights dance, fade, flicker in their multi coloured variation to the aplomb and glee of the viewers, sobbing like children at the end of its natural span. of reminiscence, and realisation of reality; dreams within grasp but beyond reach, lives blessed and blissfully untouched.
today i went out with hulin shumin and kat to nooch because we just couldnt find the dome cafe, and Olio Dome featured exorbitant prices and the type of fare leaving much to be desired. (its not that snazzy a place anyway. four bucks for a coke? fuck off.) after that we went off to watch Million Dollar Baby which was amazing (the main actors, hillary swank and this other main character guy were brilliant); but not something id want to watch again- ever. escapism to the max. more things happened after that; but that does not belong here.
clouds parted to reveal deep purple sky dotted with stars, glowing brightly fiercely inextinguishable; making a mockery of everything below in their brilliance. never before has eternal glow by estee lauder ever been so envious; an imitation stark and cheap in contrast to the stars. stars billions of light years away still close enough to comfort the odd cold soul and remind every so often the disenchanted lover shuffling aimlessly home that there is always hope; unless he happens to be horribly disfigured and have no redeeming qualities in which case there really is no hope.
take darkness and plunge it into your soul to reveal what ever was and never has and watch it fan out through every facet of your essence purging everything ever to conceal ill will or bad sentiment; shrouding it and choking it in its intricate strands of nothing and have it retreat from the self to have the light shine through anew. after all is it not true that the noblest part of human spirit is seen through endurance in times of direst need? or maybe it isnt- nay probably isnt true nothing can be believed only realised or learnt; never taken straight to the heart in a gesture as cheap and unfulfilling as your five dollar rolex. take it all and turn away to the source of everything that would ever spur you on to wherever you may go and go- dont ever stop. and when you done reached it you got yourself a slice of the nirvana pie. eat it whole, dont let it drop, achieve finality and come to the realisation that akesh abhilash doesnt know what he's talking about right now. joy.
six points, and im a-weary.
hit the stars
