Tuesday, February 22, 2005
- 12:34 am
time never was no father of mine,
he only ever taught me to look back
and grieve
today i went out to get my singpass. it was hotter than usual, so i grabbed a 165 down and went straight in and got it done. there. joyful interesting segment for the day. now double up in laughter and go kill yourself.
the past few days have been..i dont know. my mood swings from manic to depressive and back, and this morning i dint feel like going to skool, so i slept till one and later on at about nine went to the gym. i had to convince grace to come down and open it first though, so i spent the remaining hour in there working out; and pretty soon i might end up like james.
this friday the JAE results are probably coming out; and im scared as hell. what if i fucked up? or maybe i did really well? i dont know. if i get the grades i need though, im hoping to be staring into entrance to RJC or NJC, and maybe my parents'll let me get a tatoo (and even if they dont its not like theyll ever find out when i get one).
so ive been thinking about how things are gonna be. i might be a doctor, though i hate the sciences; but most people tell me i should be a lawyer. i dont know; its not like i wanna be any of those god knows i want to go overseas and act for the love of drama. and then by the time im 50 im supposed to have won an academy award (and even if all this doesnt work out i still got my exit strategy! i can still be that old man living in a cave in the mountain). life stretches so far ahead and im so confused; and then im not. im clearer than a pool of water and i know what i need to do, but is that really how i want to go? i dont know.
ill be leavin stupid fuckin JJC anyway; its only redeeming quality are its people. people like narin namita rupa anasuya farez vikram vicky nabil and the made up name football people (muthu swaminathan and friend), people whose real names i regretably never remembered, and probably never will.
do you remember what we were, how we lived/ do you remember everything i said about us two/do you remember everything we said we'd do/do you remember how much i loved you/we were a dream luv, me and blank
the post remains unread, and ac milan are back on top.
hit the stars
