Wednesday, October 13, 2004
- 2:11 pm
And we drifted to another state of mind
And imagined I was yours and you were mine
As we lay upon the grass there in the dark
Underneath the stars
Young love
Underneath the stars
i miss so many things about you, because i dream about you at night,and theyre so vivid, but then it all breaks as i wake up...and shake my head, before going back to sleep. i am past sadness, i am past tears, its just hopelessness and despair. i remember everything, every detail, everytime we met. your soft hands, your sweet scent, your flowing hair done in a way only you could ever have thought of, and everything about you that was so unique. you were like a star, blazing glory held in your eyes everytime i looked at you, proud defiance to the world, and still so warm. your soft brown deer eyes that still blazed intensely, eyes full of passion, eyes i will never ever see again. you were so beautiful, and you moved with a stately grace, and always knew what to wear, and what to say. but now you are gone; and so is a whole part of me. all the times we laughed together, everything we did, everything we were going to do, everywhere we were going to go..gone. you were my perfection, no matter what, with your finely crafted eyebrows, and your long eyelashes, like aishwarya rai, except that you were all the things she could never be, and you were prettier. every night before i slept id think of you, and be happy, knowing that somewhere out there, thered be a star looking down on you, taking care of you, making sure nothing would ever happen to you. you were way to precious, more so than the purest and finest diamonds, more radiant the silmarils. ill never find another you again, because you were always the most unique one, my fierce rebel with the gold heart. you were perfection incarnate, pure, young and beautiful. you were so special, and until i find someone new, ill die everyday, of despair, of hopelessness, of sehnsucht, die so thoroughly that i will be broken.
youll never ever read this, but i miss you so very much.
but ill get over you.
and ill find someone new.
hit the stars
