Thursday, October 07, 2004
- 10:03 pm
Home and away
Life goes on the same, bury the pain
And hold on to love
Heal the song, sing along
But what does it change
Oh this life is so confusing
Feels like I'm always losing
Come in knowing everything
But don't say a word, till they teach you the way
Words are found too close to the edge
That we don't dare sing
This will turn into something else, something else
And when it does, I'll be somewhere else, somewhere else
Where else?
And you said I should be myself
Despite all the wrong, dragging you back
Forgive and then forgone and on and on and on and on
This life is so confusing
Feels like I'm always losing
And this'll turn into something else, something else
But when it does, I'll be somewhere else, somewhere else
Where else?
its been a long long day, starting off with bio and etc, and today i won $2 from blackjack. math went on till 5, even though i finished the paper at four, but i stayed back to help waikit out, and chat with mrs ng, who has these three beautiful dogs. one of thems called tintin, and two of them are schnauzers and wire fox terriers..mrs ng is actually quite a fun person. probably makes her (surprisingly!) my favourite teacher, because idiot that i am in 'a' math, i ask her about everything and she never loses patience. what a teacher.
anyway apparently max had japanese orals today, and shumin had french yesterday, and im sure theyll do fine. graduation night dinner coming soon...but i dont wanna go. post 'o's..so many other things to do...so many other people to be with. i live life my way, so skeds usually fly right outta the window.
i saw singapore idol for a while just now, and that daphne person sounds nice..although quite a number of the other contestants are quite sad..not forgetting dear old olinda who looks like she could be roasted on a spit and have an apple stuffed into her porkine mouth.
i miss hadri and matin awfully, although ive come to the revelation that this other persons gay, after seeing a naked man on his display pic. i cant wait to see them again, and so im workin hard for rjc so as to
a) see hadri and matin again!
b) join the raffles players
c) win syf
d) save max from the horror of the world
e) get shumin to join
i feel like most of my life is an act..i remember a few times i was really me, they were right before our production, when i talked to every cast member, that time in starbucks with max, sing to the dawn itself..and a few other times i care not to mention. the stage is my element, and i revel in the freedom it gives me. the stage is my essence, and without it - i dont live. i am The Act, i am drama elemental, i am. i share my life thoroughly with a number of people, especially my dearest fairy godsiblings who mean the world to me, ramya, who will forever be my best friend, and recently max, my dear siamese sistah, joint to me by the hair, who will come with me for singapore idol next year - and we'll win. and even if we don't, itll probably be because we got bored and left.
peace the fuck out
hi malkans..its great to hear from you again...and you too moni, and you lennard, or however its spelt. how you guys doin? we'll meet up sometime.
ill return travis to max, and then ill buy one of my own.
everythings changing.
somewhere else.
hit the stars
