Saturday, September 25, 2004
- 8:03 pm
its too late now.
its bad. really really bad. i was so wrong, so damn wrong, and i went and screwed it all up. let death take me, i dont care...i miss, i pine, i despair, i know longing like never before. i dream every night, and every night i wake up in fits of despair such that i write like nothing ive ever done, just stay up and write about beauty and perfection and joy and comfort, because i see them - i see them in my dreams, i see things i never saw elsewhere. i see a lot of things, but i see few people. the spark that glows within myself will eventually die in due course, i feed everything into one thought, an image, a soul, an impression, a person in my mind, and i take away and i suffer. for sheer stupidity which blasted everything that was...and everything now is different. what a ride its been, but the rides over. i wish i could explain everything.......but i cant, not now, not anymore. everything is dead.
i miss you.
hit the stars
